“If once they get through this initial dryness successfully, they become mush less dependent on emotion and therefore much harder to tempt.” C.S. Lewis
Monday began a new week for us, but not after it had kept the remnants of its past close at hand. Sun light forced its way in like the ever looming tax day every April. It had been coming and you even had a calendar reminder, but you want no part of it.
The beginning of my day was not as different as many other, but would develop into “a difficult day.” I usually begin my day by getting Judah Rebekah rest, wake up gradually, and have her devotions before starting the day. This is like most other days, but as I said before the remnants of the past week were still looming. The end of the prior week was met with a horrible stomach virus or food poisoning, it is still unclear which. The effects of which were quite unpleasant and a reminder of how much someone can hate eating. Thankfully by the time Monday came we were able to put down more than toast. By the time Rebekah was up, I was ready to tackle the day and achieve a new level in my ever lengthening to-do list. As I proceeded to near the end of the second item on my list for the day I could hear Judah screaming and crying at everything. (Father, I ask that you would now help me to live a life worthy of the Gospel and to show my strong-willed child the same mercy and grace that you show me every moment of everyday.)
Monday was also the day that our church had scheduled a Ladies Fellowship event which they asked those that attended to bring some snack items.
Say goodbye to my to-do list for the day.
For the rest of the day we worked on finding things to keep Judah busy and things to make for the Ladies fellowship. Cider and sugar encrusted pecans were sure to be a hit! As we began to look for the ingredients for the pecans we realized that pecans are not the cheapest nuts in the world (those are buckeyes (thats a Calvary Baptist Church in Toccoa joke). We then altered our plan to have carrot cake cupcakes with cream cheese frosting. Throughout the rest of the day we cooked the cider and cupcakes. My wife did most of the work, but as 1:00pm began to near it was time for Judah… and Rebekah to nap. Rebekah is on a similar schedule to Judah. She needs a nap at least once per day, not because she gets cranky like Judah, but because of her Multiple Sclerosis. This disease tires you out like an unconditioned marathon runner and therefore she must nap.
Thankfully while we were out getting snacks I was able to get a few supplies for my to-do list. So throughout nap time I was able to finish a few more things.
When nap time was over Rebekah started getting ready for her ladies fellowship. As I was playing with Judah on the floor I could hear her frustration in the bathroom while she was fixing her hair. She just couldn’t get it quite right. I offered to help, but at that point she decided to try a different approach. A few minuets later I again was under the impression that she was not getting it quite right. I poked my head in to see if there was anyway I could help with the one piece of hair that defied her verbal commands and several layers of hair spray. She finally relented and offered me a bobby pin to pin it in place with to which she remarked “it’s sad that I need my husband to do my hair for me.”
It frustrates her that her disease can depress her ability to sometimes even do her own hair. When we received the news about her M.S. we were so happy that we finally had a diagnosis for why her body seemed to slowly be letting go of her motor functions. Today we are struggling with the normal fine motor stills of putting in a bobby pin with the looming 3x’s weekly shot coming up after her fellowship.
Life is going to get busy and we may not always like the circumstances that surround us. As men of God that are to be leaders in their homes and church bodies, we must remember that people always matter more than the things on our to-do list. Slow down look at the people you interact with through the lenses of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Show them how to live out the Gospel even things are busy and may not get done in our time frame. Circumstances will always change, there is hardly an item in our lives that will never change. Remember that He is the God of everything and that He orchestrates all things to His honor. Give Him the honor that He designed in you to give in those hard circumstances in your life.
Pastors are people just like the rest of us. Yes, we are to be the spiritual leaders that God has set before you to show you the correct path God has. As men we have struggles and temptations just like others. Please be patient with us, bear us up on wings of prayer to a God who is ready and willing to give wisdom and aid to those that ask.
Please remember that Pastors have families, wives, children, and extended family that take time and care just like yours does. Each person in their life is watching them, some are just waiting for them to fall so that they can say they that told you so. It is enormous burden to bear being a man of God. It never pains a pastor more than to see his flock outside of the will of God and tearing him down every chance they get.